Deeksha Danger the website
I have started this website to show the other side to Deeksha (Diksha, Oneness Blessing, Oneness Prayer or Oneness Deeksha). I wish people to see the truth about the Oneness Movement, Kalki Bhagavan (real name Vijay Kumar) and Amma (real name Padmavathy).
All that glitters is not gold.
Peace and love/ Dennis
"... after local deekshas, in Europe as an example, there are people who have become psychotic. Some have to be admitted to mental hospitals, a few have even committed suicide" /Freddy Nielsen (was one of Kalki Bhagvan's closest disciple for 15 years)
The Deeksha gave me a psychosis!
My name is Dennis and I have always been a calm, relaxed person. A good friend of mine introduced me to yoga and it was a true blessing for me. We sometimes went out at night and did yoga under the stars. Since yoga had been so good for me I started meditation. I joined a buddhist community. I reached a peace I had never felt before in my life, I was very happy.
One day my massage therapist told me about a woman that had a special healing ability, they call it deeksha, he said. We talked about this for a while and I started to get curious. I week later I found myself in a small room with ten others. The "healing woman" was there. She told her story about how she had found peace in India through a 21 day process. I thought it sounded kind of strange. Then the deeksha started. The deeksha giver walked around and put her hands on our heads. When I felt her hands on my head I started crying. Then she burst out in laughter and I started laughing too, even I felt I needed to cry. It didn't feel good at all.
After the deeksha I got into my car and drove home. I felt quite peaceful. Next morning when I woke up it felt like my head was going to explode. I was feeling nauseous and felt like throwing up. Then I got the feeling that someone was trying to control me. I went outside to take a walk and have some fresh air. It didn't help. It felt like there was a dark force inside of me trying to control me. I was terrified. I went to my parents and they took me to the mental hospital. At the hospital I was diagnosed with psychosis. I had to take three different kind of medicines.
About a month later I felt a little better and could leave the hospital. But I was depressed and the depression got worse over the days. I started to have suicidal thoughts. It came to the point where I planned how to do it. I didn't want to live anymore. I told my parents this so they took me to the hospital again, and I was hospitalised for a second time. When I got out again some weeks later I felt a little better. It was still very hard to get up every morning. My friends and family pulled me up and took me out to the forest every day. Somehow this helped. I got more clear in my head, maybe even some of that deeksha energy was leaving me. As I got better I decreased my medication. And a bit later I tried meditating again. After sitting down for about 2 minutes I saw flashing bolts of light going into my mouth and then down my head. I stopped meditating. I felt nauseous. It went away, and instead I was filled with fear.
I contacted an enlightened teacher I really trust and told him what I was going through. He said to just feel the fear and stay with it, and don't build any stories around it. I did this for a few days, just sat in front of my computer and felt all the feelings that came up. It was mostly fear. Then I felt better again. I even tried mediation and this time it worked fine, the deeksha energy seemed to be out of my system. This is where I am now. I'm trying to rebuild my life, and become the relaxed, joyful guy I ones was.
I have suffered a lot because of that one deeksha. I was in a really bad shape for well over a year.
Peace and love/ Dennis