I too got a psychosis!
Hello!! I just can feel with you. I have same problem when i got deeksha. two times i must go to psykhospital with psykos of deeksa.
Alot of medicin i got. I was a girl who like meditation. Not now just fear when i try. i was a teacher in yoga and in very harmony before. full with sun happiness and free. Now every day i hard and the life will never be the same again. //Noni